Peter Lanza has mostly avoided the press since his son killed his mother, Nancy Lanza, before gunning down 20 children and 6 teachers, but in September he agreed to sit down with The New Yorker's Andrew Solomon. Lanza hadn't seen his son for 2 years as of December 2012 and wishes he would have tried harder to be a part of his life.
“Any variation on what I did and how my relationship was had to be good, because no outcome could be worse,” he said.
Lanza described his son as a, "normal, weird little kid," but by middle school he said his ex-wife started to notice worrisome changes.
“It was crystal clear something was wrong,” Lanza said. “The social awkwardness, the uncomfortable anxiety, unable to sleep, stress, unable to concentrate, having a hard time learning, the awkward walk, reduced eye contact. You could see the changes occurring.”
Both he and Nancy took their son to see multiple psychiatrists and therapists as he grew older but Lanza does not think that anyone could have predicted what his son did. He does think that Adam would have killed his entire family if he had the chance.
"With hindsight, I know Adam would have killed me in a heartbeat, if he’d had the chance. I don’t question that for a minute. The reason he shot Nancy four times was one for each of us: one for Nancy; one for him; one for Ryan; one for me.”
In reflection and understanding of the tragedy, Lanza has come to the conclusion that he wishes his son had never been born.
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