LOS ANGELES, Dec. 9 (UPI) -- Celine Dion says her first Christmas without late husband Rene Angelil will be a "bittersweet" experience.
The 48-year-old singer revealed in an interview with Page Six that she and her three children with Angelil will spend the holidays on their family's annual ski trip to Montana.
"I cannot just live on like, 'I lost my husband, my children have no father,'" Dion said of the decision. "I have to stand tall and strong because this is my way of living: Stand tall, be positive, pick your battles, do the best you can and to live for today."
"I can't believe it's going to be a year that my husband passed," she admitted. "I don't know when Santa Claus is coming, but if I had a wish to make this year, can you just tell him to take his time? I'm not ready! It's kind of a bittersweet moment and at the same time we need to make the holidays really happy.
"I feel thankful that he doesn't suffer and he doesn't have to worry because we got him," the star added. "He got us and the spirit of the holidays will get us together again. We're going to ski again all together and he will be there with us."
Angelil died at age 73 in January after a long battle with throat cancer. He and Dion were married over 21 years, and the singer revealed in October that Angelil was the only man she's ever kissed.
"Before he left, it was very, very difficult for all of us. For me, especially, and my children, to see the man of my life die a little bit more every day," she told CBS News.
"When he left, it was kind of relief for me that the man that I love, the only man that I kissed, the only man that I loved -- I've never kissed another man in my life ... [that] he stopped suffering," the star confessed.
Dion and Angelil share 15-year-old son Rene-Charles and 6-year-old twin sons Nelson and Eddy. The singer last released the album Encore un soir in August, and remains in residence at The Colosseum at Caesars Palace in Las Vegas.