LOS ANGELES -- A Scientologist testified in a $30 million lawsuit Tuesday that she was too frightened to attempt an escape from cult deprogrammer Ted Patrick -- despite the fact she had several opportunities during her 38 days of captivity.
'I thought he would kill me,' said Paula Dain, her voice choked with emotion, during her second day of testimony in the federal lawsuit against Patrick and three others.
Miss Dain, who said she renounced her allegiance to Scientology only to convince Patrick to let her go, testified she was 'exhausted, very frightened and quite humiliated' by the deprogramming attempt.
'I was not doing very well at all,' she said.
Patrick is accused in the civil action of kidnapping Miss Dain, 29, and subjecting her to more than a month of intensive deprogramming. She said she was freed only after signing a statement renouncing the Church of Scientology and absolving Patrick of responsibility in the kidnapping.
Patrick, representing himself in the suit because he said he can't afford an attorney, cross examined Miss Dain briefly at the close of Tuesday's session.
During his halting cross-examination, Patrick walked Miss Dain through the first hours of their initial meeting Sept. 2, 1979, in a house in Laguna Beach, Calif., where Miss Dain was brought by her father and step-mother to be deprogrammed.
Miss Dain testified that Patrick at first told her he only wanted to talk with her about Scientology 'to restore your free will and ability to think.'
Earlier Tuesday, Miss Dain said she feared Patrick would beat her after she got into a fist fight with one of his female assistants.
''I'm going to break you. If you touch one of my people one more time, I'm going to knock you out,'' Miss Dain said Patrick told her.
'I was terrified,' she said.
Patrick asked U.S. District Judge William Byrne Jr. to declare a mistrial earlier in the day after jurors were inadvertantly shown photographs with identification tags from Patrick's criminal kidnapping trial in San Diego. That trial ended in a hung jury, and attorneys had agreed not to refer to it during the civil proceeding.
Byrne denied the motion, but said he would personally examine all exhibits before they are shown to the jury.
Miss Dain said Patrick told her he planned to keep her so long that he would begin referring to her as 'his wife.'
Patrick told her, ''I don't care if this takes four hours, four days, four weeks, four months or four years, you're going to stay here,'' she testified.
'He said I wasn't allowed to go till I could make a decision on my own.'
She said he called her a 'mindless robot, zombie and a vegetable.'
Donald Randolph, Miss Dain's attorney, said her father and stepmother paid Patrick $75,000 to abduct the young woman because they violently opposed her participation in Scientology.
Also named in the suit were Nan McLean, a Canadian deprogrammer; Paulette Cooper, a freelance writer; and Los Angeles attorney Richard Akemon.