"I know my father loved me, but I got to question how much, to put me with all these wolves," Gotti says to his friends in a taped conversation last year, the New York Daily News said.
Gotti, 40, faces trial on charges of extortion, securities fraud and conspiring to kill talk-show host Curtis Sliwa. A bail hearing is set for next week and excerpts of the tapes were filed in an attempt to demonstrate that Gotti is not a danger to the community.
Gotti, known as Junior, talks of how he came to realize that the romanticized notion of a mobster was a charade and how he desperately wanted out of the Cosa Nostra but did not have the courage to tell his father, who headed the Gambino crime family. The elder Gotti died in jail.