Dean McDermott announces departure from 'True Tori'

LOS ANGELES, Nov. 6 (UPI) -- Dean McDermott will no longer appear in the Lifetime reality series, True Tori.

The 47-year-old Canadian told Access Hollywood's Billy Bush and Kit Hoover on Wednesday that he's "not going to continue with the show."

"We have five more shows left," he continued. "I can't do this anymore. I can't keep opening a vein, opening my soul and sharing my feelings and thoughts and demons with the world."

True Tori premiered in April 2014 and follows McDermott and his wife Tori Spelling as they attempt to recover from the scandal that ensued when news broke that McDermott was unfaithful. The show documents the couple's everyday lives including their personal conversations and visits to a marriage counselor.

"I don't watch it, I can't. It's really difficult... I can't do it any more, for my soul," the actor said of his decision to leave.

Asked if he believed his marriage to Spelling would survive, McDermott said he "[holds] out a lot of hope."

"If you don't have hope what do you have? I love this woman, regardless of what I've done. I love her and want to be with her. I want to grow old with her... at this moment she feels the exact same way."

On the subject of his affair, McDermott said he wished the whole thing had never happened and that "his alcohol and drug use hadn't gotten out of control."

"I've learned a lot from this whole process. From the affair, form doing the show... I almost lost everything, everything that means anything to me. I don't want to ever do that again. I don't ever want to be in that dark place again where I wanted to take my life... I was driving around in my truck with a loaded 9 mm. I was put on a 5150 at the UCLA psych ward. [My son] Liam had a performance and I didn't want to miss that performance... I had plans that night to do it."

As for his wife's recent hospitalization, McDermott said Spelling works too hard and "doesn't take the best care of herself."

"She always puts others before herself. [It was] pneumonia, bronchitis and sinusitis and that triggered migrainosus," he said.